Who am I again? My Introduction

Who am I again? My Introduction

Hello, friends! If you have looked around my blog, you may have already come across the About Me page. But if not, let me introduce myself. My name is Cheryl and I am a 46 year old.

The last five years have been pretty transformative for me. I’ve been on my very own roller coaster of messiness, ranging from marriage, kid stuff, my health, starting to work again, COVID, more deaths than I care to go into at this point, and into what I imagine to be my midlife. I certainly wouldn’t call it a midlife crisis, although some of these experiences very well could have put me into full crisis mode. Some of them did, honestly.

These five years have been about spiritual growth and self discovery—about unlearning my roles, whether they were ones I chose or ones that became mine naturally. It’s been about rediscovering what brings me joy. It’s been about losing the idea that money and material belongings would make my life more whole. Coming to terms with the realization that I, myself, had never even felt whole, and deciding that I deserved a life that would bring me that feeling—a life where I, Cheryl, could enjoy myself, love myself, and be strong enough to give life to a new version of myself. 🩷

Not gonna lie, it’s also been the hardest five years of my life, and I’ve been through some tough times, y’all. But today, I can say with confidence that a newer, stronger, and happier version of me exists. Am I whole yet? Nah, I’m probably far from it. And maybe I’ll never feel whatever it was I was desperate for initially. But today, I feel happier and more self-aware. I have better boundaries. I’m not defined by my roles. I’m kinder to myself. I take better care of myself. And I’ve allowed myself to be more open and vulnerable, to share more of myself, to not be so afraid of others’ opinions and judgments, and to share a story that has had so many twists and turns—so much love, grief, excitement, heartache, confusion, overwhelm, fear, and joy—all wrapped up into me.

Some things I will put out there now:

• I am curious about everything.
• I love sunsets and truly believe they are one of God’s greatest gifts to us.
• And on that note, I believe in, trust in, and love God. For me, God is everything. Sometimes I will say things like “the universe…” and I want to be clear that for me, God is the universe. God is the higher source in my life.
• God is also the one who judges me, and let’s just say He loves me as I am. That includes the part of me that has a sailor’s mouth and is full of sarcastic remarks. LOL. Please accept my apologies in advance.
• I will write this blog like I talk to a friend. For real. If you’re my real-life friend, you can likely hear how I’m writing it.
• I am constantly learning. I am constantly seeking. I desire growth.
• I am a caregiver, a nurturer, and an ally.
• I am absolutely in love with nature. It is where I find my peace, where I find my balance, where I can reset. And I love taking pictures of what I see around me. This means I have a gazillion pictures, but it also means I have some gorgeous shots. I’ll share a bunch on here through the Affirmations and Things I Love pages.
• I am part of an incredible family, whom I adore and love with all my heart. My family includes a little bit of everything—some of everyone and then some. If you’re in it (even if not by blood), then you already know that family is most important to me. My mother says I’m fiercely protective. My kids will tell you the same.
• I am a hopeless romantic. I daydream. I love houseplants 🪴. I can’t survive without music. I make lots of lists and have notebooks for everything. I love fairies, and gardens. I have way too many rocks and stones. Really, I am passionate about many things and I hope to share parts of it here with you.
• I love certain animals. Geese. Guinea Pigs. Capybaras. Alpacas. Llamas. Monkeys. Goats. Cats. I am just saying…you will likely encounter pictures of these animals on here in the future. You’re welcome. 😉

I could go on but I feel like this gives you a good idea of who I am. I want to express my gratitude. I am so thankful you are here to be apart of my journey of self-discovery, that you have taken the time to read this and explore my little spot online. I hope to see you again soon!

XOXO,

Cheryl